Hope everyone’s Christmas and New Year was great, I’d love to say I had a fantastic one but the reality of the situation is that I didn’t. In a way I guess there’s just too much hype surrounding the whole festive season. We went out on the Friday night prior to New Years Eve to see Miss Kittin at Panorama Bar and I’ve gotta say I had a great night; which was partially responsible for my average New Years. My recovery time these days is just completely off the richter scale, we left Panorama at about 10.30am on Sat morning and as soon as I got home I crashed only to wake up later that afternoon to feel deathly ill. The illness stayed with me pretty much until (and throughout) New Years Eve which kinda sucked. We went to a friends house party first and then onto another friends and then onto a massive warehouse party called??? can’t remember but it doesn’t really matter. It probably would’ve been a good party had I not felt slightly queasy and tired but there you go, ended up leaving at about 7.30 in the morning to mission back home and again crash. Not a very inspiring evening but I guess you can’t win em’ all.

Even more uninspiring is the winter here, for the whole of winter so far it’s only snowed once, can you believe it? So all we get is darkness from 4pm onwards and that’s it, how depressing.

I think I’m going to overuse a word in this entry and that word is: inspired/uninspired. I just seem to have little (or no) inspiration to do anything lately apart from dragging my ass into work. I haven’t done a German lesson in ages, can hardly bring myself to working on any music and am just feeling generally apathetic. I guess it could just be the weather but I don’t think so, I think it’s more likely a combination of things just getting me down. I hate it when I’m like this. Maybe I just put too much love and effort into things and rarely get any back and my tanks running on empty or something……..who knows! or maybe it’s the weather and my alienated state due to the fact I’m living in a country where I don’t fully understand the language, maybe it’s just thoughtless fuckers who have little consideration toward other peoples feelings and leach away giving little if nothing back or maybe it’s just that I miss my friends and feel more alone when sitting at a table with friends here than I ever have before. Either way I’m completely and wholeheartedly uninspired

Anyways, weekend off, I think it’s time to chill. I may just work up enough inspiration to drink a beer and watch mtv or something. Until next time peeps……………